POSITIVE!!!

In the few months gone by, I was gradually loosing it

The pregnancy test came out negative again

What's wrong with me?

With the bathroom door firmly locked, I let the tears rain down in torrents.

Maybe if it feel harder my soul would be purged of this torment

This had become my routine lately

I was running through pregnancy kits like a maniac 

There was no sensible explanation, i still showed up everywhere with a smile

And in that moment I understood 

I understood perfectly

I understood the pains of the couples trying for years without conceiving 

I understood the pains of doing a thing severally and yet failing at it

Giving it a hundred and getting zero

I understood those tears of resignation where you ask God 'Please help me'

When it's dark

When you're alone

When that facade falls and you're staring at you

Haven given life your everything yet nothing

Beeeeepppppp, beeeeepppppp

The sound of your hope dying

You never know what your neighbour is going through 

So next time, before you ask that lady

'Which Saturday we go come chop rice na?' or 'When una go born?'

Before you tell that graduate ' You never still get work, you sure say you go school so?'

Or that student 'Your own school no dey finish?'

Think it over twice, they just might be giving life their best

If those words won't speak positives, don't let them leave your lips

We already had a son, hubby always wanted just one child, but I wanted more

Oh how I hid my feelings so well until he caught on and had 'the talk' with me

Today we are blessed with two beautiful kids but I've tasted what it means to try, try and keep trying at something without positive results

 so now whenever I think of anyone I pray, pray and won't stop praying.

BE THAT CHANNEL OF HAPPINESS 

BE THAT CHANNEL OF HOPE

IN WHATEVER YOU DO, SPEAK POSITIVE!!!